It has been exactly one year now, since I delivered my daughter Grace into the world stillborn. I was such a exhausting day, both physically and emotionally. A day that I would not want live again. I feel like I am able to think and talk about her now without feeling devastated. Whenever I am around my friends, who had baby girls due around the same time Grace was, I can't help feel a little bit jealous. I know that I might get the chance one day to raise her, but it is a hard thing to comprehend. I think the biggest thing I learned from this experience, is that we really don't have that much control. Sometimes, things happen in life. We might not understand the reason why, but we have to have faith that God does. It is comforting to know that in the end everything will be right and fair.
So until we meet again, my little angel. I love you.